//Biisinä toimii Alessia Cara -Scars To Your Beautiful //

Tarina sijoittuu vuoteen 2005 eli Jill on kuusivuotias


[size=85]She just wants to be beautiful
She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits
She craves attention, she praises an image
She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor
Oh, she don't see the light that's shining
Deeper than the eyes can find it
Maybe we have made her blind
So she tries to cover up her pain and cut her woes away
Cause covergirls don't cry after their face is made
 
But there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
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Istun baletti-opiston pekukopissa ja pidättelen itkua. En päässyt vielätään joukkueeseen, vaikka hain jo kolmatta vuotta peräkkäin. En saanut itkeä, koska "Kauniit tytöt eivät itke" niin ainakin äiti aina sanoi. Valitsijat etsivät minusta vain vikoja. Olin liian iloinen, enkä osannut pitää vakavaa ilmettä koko aikaa, olin liian herkkä. Eikä piruettini menneet koko matkaa varpailla.

[size=85She has dreams to be an envy, so she's starving
You know, covergirls eat nothing
She says "beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything"
"What's a little bit of hunger?"
"I could go a little while longer," she fades away
She don't see her perfect, she don't understand she's worth it
Or that beauty goes deeper than the surface
So to all the girls that's hurting
Let me be your mirror, help you see a little bit clearer
The light that shines within
 
There's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
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Yhäkkiä ystäväni avasi oven ja toi minulle paketin keksejä, en syönyt yhtään kekseistä, koska halusin näyttää ballettitanssialta eli olla täydellinen ja kaunis. En ollut ikinä tuntenut oloani kauniiksi ja itse tuntoni oli aivan maassa. Lähdin kotiin pidätellen itkua.
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No better you than the you that you are
No better you than the you that you are
No better life than the life we're living
No better life than the life we're living
No better time for your shine, you're a star
No better time for your shine, you're a star
Oh, you're beautiful, oh, you're beautiful
 
And there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
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2015

Istun yksin junassa ja huomaan erään tyttöporukan, joka tulee vaunuun. He istahtavat viereeni ja yhtäkkiä yksi tytöistä huomaa minut ja kysyy "Miten oot noin kaunis". Hymyilen vain koska tytöt olivat kymmenen vuotta sitten kanssani samassa baletti-opistolla